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[therushingsky]

"Heyyyy, you've reached the head office of the Atlas Corporation, leave a message and your number, and one of our people will get back to you."

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[therushingsky]

Wait, you don't know? If you don't know then why are you--

If this isn't you ditching me because you're getting abandonment issues over Stan and Ford, then why are you going?

[beejfu]

Because I don’t belong here!

[wow that's said in a pained rush]

Because all I do is take from you guys and never learn or grow and maybe that’s impossible or maybe I'm not understanding what trying is. I’m still the same selfish schmuck and everyone needs to stop wasting their time and effort to get me to be different.

[therushingsky]

No offense, babe? But bullshit!

You know why you're stopping to explain yourself this time when last time you had this crisis you just vanished without saying anything? That's called growth, Betelgeuse! That's called learning! And you have an inmate who you really like and really connect with and he-- deserves not to have you disappear because you're feeling insecure about this!

And--

And I don't want you to go. So you're still kinda selfish, everyone is kinda selfish, Betelgeuse. If you wait until you're totally great at being human to stick it out and decide that you're good enough, then you're going to be waiting until you're dead again because no one ever gets there.

[beejfu]

....Really?

[oh no that was a croak of doubt but also really sad hope]

[therushingsky]

Yes.

I wasn't good enough for the job either, Betelgeuse, that's why I got demoted. It doesn't mean I didn't help someone while I was here. Maybe more than one person. The idea that you graduate and become a warden and then you're done is just--

It's not how it works.

It's okay to still suck a bit.

[beejfu]

I don't wanna leave you. Or Loki or Hange. Even if I suck a LOT.

Heh.

How do you know you're always gonna feel that way? Humans change emotions so fast!

[therushingsky]

Then don't.

And I might get mad at you, I might get upset, but I'm not going to want you to leave.

[beejfu]

That's what I thought about Tiff too.

She invited me to be a part of her family, and then she tells me I don't belong here.

I keep falling for the same shit, Stringbean.

[therushingsky]

What happened?

If you upset her she might have said some stuff that she didn't really mean. Tiff is always harder on wardens than she is on inmates, but she's not perfect either.

[beejfu]

Jesus christ.

[therushingsky]

Why don't you come over and we'll talk about it, babe?

[beejfu]

That would be amazing.