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therushingsky) wrote2030-08-19 04:12 pm
therushingsky) wrote2030-08-19 04:12 pm
IC Contact Post
"Heyyyy, you've reached the head office of the Atlas Corporation, leave a message and your number, and one of our people will get back to you."
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When the former ghoul begins to collapse, Rhys darts forward to catch him.
"Hey, hey, no no no no, you're not disgusting and you have nothing to be ashamed of. You have come so far, babe..."
If he can manage, he'll steer Betelgeuse back a little to sit on the edge of the bed, if only to keep him from falling down entirely.
"If you need clean clothes I can lend you a hoodie-- I use fabric conditioner so it'll probably smell kinda boring and flowery, if that's easier right now?"
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"Holy shit. Holy shit you smell beautiful."
He starts to cry, getting a little bit hysterical.
"Oh my god you're beautiful. You've always been so kind to me, and I didn't see it before. Oh my god. I don't wanna argue with you because - "
Betelgeuse pauses to gasp for air. Is that a thing he has to remember to do now???
Exhale;
"-because I was so, so shitty to you, and to Bill, and to Hange, and I didn't see it before. I killed people. And I remember how it feels to be killed and oh god. Oh god I'm a monster."
He's bawling.
"And I'm even worse right now because, I mean, here you are, helping me through this very trying, emotional time and it's like, I haven't even EVER asked how you are because I'm a shitty-"
Inhale.
" -selfish person, you know? Oh god. I need to get away from here, I'm no good, Rhys, I suck. And I wanna make it better, I have to make myself better so I can be deserving of - ow. Ow, okay, no one fucking told me love could hurt."
He feels for his chest, pale and scared. Somewhere on the ship, Hange's communicator flickers to indicate her inmate's imminent graduation.
"I have to go. I have to get away from here, you're too bright for me right now, I'm a stupid smelly selfish demon goblin thing and I've been that way for so long and....I h-have to go."
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This is a lot. And Rhys knew it was going to be a lot, but he hadn't realised that everything was going to come crashing in on Betelgeuse quite so hard and fast as this. He runs his fingers through the demon's hair - and god, it's soft in a way that it's never felt before - trying to soothe his racing heart.
"Shhh, shhhh, listen to me: You don't get to choose what other people deserve. You don't get to decide that I'm too good for you or whatever. You're sweet, and you're funny, and you're handsome, and I love you."
He doesn't know if it's enough to stop Betelgeuse from panicking, doesn't know if it's going to be enough to stop him from bursting out the door and running away to see Hange, but he knows that if Betelgeuse is about to bolt, this is the last thing he wants ringing in his ears:
"Breathe, babe, just keep breathing. I love you, I love you, I love you."
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"Whoa. Whoa. I can feel my heart. Oh my god there's this weird rushing in my ears and everything is too much. Jesus - Stringbean, Rhys, I can't do this, I have to...to do something."
Betelgeuse pulls at his hair a little, fighting back a sudden overwhelming wave of fear and anger and why is he feeling all these things times a hundred?
"No. No no, this is all wrong, something's wrong, I need to get away, I'm sorry." The demon-turned-human looks at Rhys like a drowning fish. "But I can't do this to you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I love you too, I'm sorry."
He reaches in his mind for a solution and knows instinctively that something's changed, that he can just go home, leave, except there isn't a home yet for him but he can't stay here with Rhys looking so adorable and confused to the point where it's making his newly beating heart ache.
The living, breathing man rubs at his forehead and, shit, it's sweat. Sweat and tears when he never used to sweat before. He stares, shoulders shaking, at his own hand. So many tiny little blood vessels beneath the skin, all pumping to keep his newly formed circulatory system beating.
This body's so weird. So delicate.
He gulps a breath of air, looks up to lock eyes with Rhys, feeling an overwhelming sense of-
"I love you!"
- and disappears off the ship.
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It's kind of terrible to see the other man freaking out so badly. To feel him descending into panic and not being able to drag him back up and out of it. He wanted this-- Rhys knows that he wanted this, but it's almost frightening to see him go from calm and happy to just-- reeling with self hatred and regret so quickly.
Rhys wants to shove back the apologies, deflect all the sorrow and the grief and the pain and just make him focus on the good, on some part of living that isn't terrifying--
But then he's gone, and Rhys-- Rhys should really just let him do whatever he's doing, have whatever moment this is, and give him his space, but with the other man in such a panic, he just can't do it.
He'll apologise later for being clingy:
"Betelgeuse, Betelgeuse, Betelgeuse."
He waits a beat, but nothing happens.
"I said, Betelgeuse, Betelgeuse, Betelgeuse!"
Still nothing.
Maybe he's ducked into zero, or Ford's cabin, or maybe the summoning-- doesn't work now, like it used too. Either way, Rhys is worried enough that he decides to escalate this, and digs his communicator out of his pocket...