I'm still death tolling and my arm isn't back online yet. I really don't want to say any of the horrible shit I have to say to you, because it's not for you, or at you, or about you, but it's just all just sitting in my brain right now wanting to come out and just--
No, like. The opposite. It's weirdly validating. I keep wanting to grab them both and scream it in their faces and I can't right now because it would make me a huge asshole.
Is Elijah helping with your arm? I would promise to help on but the truth is I visited Lark earlier and he asked me one semi-complex question and I started crying hysterically into my soldier toast, so I should not be working with complex machinery.
I am super gracious, together, and adult right now.
He said something about Bill, when he contacted me. The vibe was like:
"If being my friend is too much of a risk then I'll be angry and hurt because you're still friends with Bill and he's done way worse things than this, but hey it's up to you!"
And I wanted to get a megaphone and like, scream in his face that Bill has never hurt me. Like, not once. But also, Bill doesn't just tell you stories about how dangerous he is in a whole different universe and then in this universe cry on your shoulder, or put his head in your lap, or make you think that he's
[He has to stop for a minute.]
It's not like he isn't complicated, but if Bill decided he needed to turn me inside out because of some extremely complicated scheme
[...Actually, you know what?]
I was going to say "I feel like I'd been warned", but you know what, I actually don't think he even would at this point.
I think he'd make a different scheme.
Oh, and the hardware's fine. It's something to do with-- connective tissue and nerves and stuff. I'm talking to Harry about it.
You don't have too. I guess I'm just the same as you. I want to say it our loud without actually having a huge ethical debate with him, because I know if I do I'll just end up--
[He wants to say falling back in love with him, but that's not really what he means. It's a step too far.]
He's magnetic and if you let him anywhere near your heart he'll turn your life upside down, either in the best way imaginable or by destroying all of it.
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Date: 2019-12-09 03:54 pm (UTC)maybe we should talk later?
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Date: 2019-12-09 04:03 pm (UTC)Is Elijah helping with your arm? I would promise to help on but the truth is I visited Lark earlier and he asked me one semi-complex question and I started crying hysterically into my soldier toast, so I should not be working with complex machinery.
I am super gracious, together, and adult right now.
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Date: 2019-12-09 04:17 pm (UTC)"If being my friend is too much of a risk then I'll be angry and hurt because you're still friends with Bill and he's done way worse things than this, but hey it's up to you!"
And I wanted to get a megaphone and like, scream in his face that Bill has never hurt me. Like, not once. But also, Bill doesn't just tell you stories about how dangerous he is in a whole different universe and then in this universe cry on your shoulder, or put his head in your lap, or make you think that he's
[He has to stop for a minute.]
It's not like he isn't complicated, but if Bill decided he needed to turn me inside out because of some extremely complicated scheme
[...Actually, you know what?]
I was going to say "I feel like I'd been warned", but you know what, I actually don't think he even would at this point.
I think he'd make a different scheme.
Oh, and the hardware's fine. It's something to do with-- connective tissue and nerves and stuff. I'm talking to Harry about it.
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Date: 2019-12-09 04:22 pm (UTC)Thank you though Rhys- please don't stop hanging out with me. I need the sanity check.
I'll bring you that cake asap?
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Date: 2019-12-09 04:32 pm (UTC)[He wants to say falling back in love with him, but that's not really what he means. It's a step too far.]
Falling back into his orbit. In his gravity.
Thanks, Quentin. Can't w8 for c8ke x
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Date: 2019-12-09 04:34 pm (UTC)GET SOME REST make Elijah spoil you
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Date: 2019-12-09 04:40 pm (UTC)Be careful okay? Feel free to come over if you need to cry about toast again
xxx
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Date: 2019-12-09 05:01 pm (UTC)Text if ANYTHING.
But seriously- goodnight.