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therushingsky
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therushingsky"Heyyyy, you've reached the head office of the Atlas Corporation, leave a message and your number, and one of our people will get back to you."
Re: text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 11:27 am (UTC)IF WE WEREN'T ALL DATING MURDERERS NO ONE HERE WOULD BE DATING ANYONE
text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 11:31 am (UTC)we should all 100% be single for three to five years jfc
that would not be a bad decision for literally anyone on board
Re: text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 01:44 pm (UTC)No one would stick to it.
I don't want him to lose anyone. I don't want to mess up his life. I just can't be in it.
Merry Xmas to 5's!
Re: text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 01:49 pm (UTC)more of that
but once he is off i am going to bring you the best fucking christmas cake
Re: text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 02:00 pm (UTC)[Pause. Slightly too long.]
are we okay?
Re: text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 02:04 pm (UTC)But I share my life with a man who betrayed your trust in explicit, violent terms.
So it would be completely understandable if you decided I was not your circus, not your monkeys.
Re: text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 03:31 pm (UTC)[Also, you want to be his warden? Cute.
But he's deliberately focusing on the small things here, because:]
I really don't want to lose both of you at the same time.
[And even though he made the call, he told Jedao that he didn't want answers or recomphense, it still feels like he lost the other man against his will. It feels like he just found out that whatever love Jedao has for him could just be switched off, and then switched back on when it becomes convenient again.]
But it's not just my call. I now have weird, complicated-- bad blood-feeling-y relationships with the two most important people on this ship to you, and I'd love to pretend that it's just because people are jealous of me because I'm so pretty, but
but you still have to be able to live with that as well.and it's awkward.
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Date: 2019-12-09 03:45 pm (UTC)Bill. Jon. Lark. Credence (improved somewhat.) You.
I know why and most days it's easy not to hold it against them. But I also feel like if I lived my life by the rules of their trauma and mistrust that there wouldn't be people left in my life any more. And I made a promise a long time ago not to let the relationships diminish me, and part of who I am and what I like about myself is my ability to connect to weird people.
So I am both practiced at living with it and motivated to continue doing so.
1/3 text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 03:50 pm (UTC)2/4 SORRY text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 03:51 pm (UTC)3/4 text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 03:51 pm (UTC)sorry sorry sorry that was really shitty it's not like you're in a great place right now either.
4/4 text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 03:54 pm (UTC)maybe we should talk later?
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Date: 2019-12-09 04:03 pm (UTC)Is Elijah helping with your arm? I would promise to help on but the truth is I visited Lark earlier and he asked me one semi-complex question and I started crying hysterically into my soldier toast, so I should not be working with complex machinery.
I am super gracious, together, and adult right now.
Re: text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 04:17 pm (UTC)"If being my friend is too much of a risk then I'll be angry and hurt because you're still friends with Bill and he's done way worse things than this, but hey it's up to you!"
And I wanted to get a megaphone and like, scream in his face that Bill has never hurt me. Like, not once. But also, Bill doesn't just tell you stories about how dangerous he is in a whole different universe and then in this universe cry on your shoulder, or put his head in your lap, or make you think that he's
[He has to stop for a minute.]
It's not like he isn't complicated, but if Bill decided he needed to turn me inside out because of some extremely complicated scheme
[...Actually, you know what?]
I was going to say "I feel like I'd been warned", but you know what, I actually don't think he even would at this point.
I think he'd make a different scheme.
Oh, and the hardware's fine. It's something to do with-- connective tissue and nerves and stuff. I'm talking to Harry about it.
Re: text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 04:22 pm (UTC)Thank you though Rhys- please don't stop hanging out with me. I need the sanity check.
I'll bring you that cake asap?
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Date: 2019-12-09 04:32 pm (UTC)[He wants to say falling back in love with him, but that's not really what he means. It's a step too far.]
Falling back into his orbit. In his gravity.
Thanks, Quentin. Can't w8 for c8ke x
Re: text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 04:34 pm (UTC)GET SOME REST make Elijah spoil you
Re: text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 04:40 pm (UTC)Be careful okay? Feel free to come over if you need to cry about toast again
xxx
Re: text: private
Date: 2019-12-09 05:01 pm (UTC)Text if ANYTHING.
But seriously- goodnight.